I've been married to my husband of 5 years.We have two beautiful kids together.And i have 2 kids from other relationships

I really do love my husband (37 M) but in all honesty,I've lost my physical attraction to him as the years have gone by.He didn't age well at all.

He's never been good in bed either and I've only orgasmed during sex with him less than a handful of times in our whole relationship

He never eats me out as he says its "akward" but expects me to blow him.No man before him ever had an issue with going down on me

I watch porn more than I should.I love porn for women.I generally just watch men pleasure women though haha

I'm completely hetero btw.Anyway,a few years ago,my oldest son (not my husband's kid) signed up for football.

One of his teammates has a dad that is literally really...really hot lol.I've always been massively attracted to him but he's like 7 years younger

I honestly fantasize about him as much as possible while I masturbate or while having sex with my husband .

But this is far from the first time I've done this.There have been a good amount of men that I've seen in public that I've wanted to sleep with as well.

I literally am so horny for my son's teammates dad that...I've literally looked at his shirtless pics on social media just to get some pleasure

He's not married btw

I guess I might have some kind of sex addiction or am just desperate for something new.

Where do I go from here?