I am 21 and my mom is 40. She was married to my dad but they got a divorce when I was young. I don't have many memories of them being a couple. I've only known them to be my parents that aren't together so I wouldn't really consider myself a child of divorce. My dad moved to Europe when I was in my early teens so I mostly really only grew up being raised by my mom.

I live with her still but I work at a factory and pay half the bills in the house. We have a normal relationship. I hug my mom and kiss her on the cheek but nothing more than that. I've never wanted anything more than that and she hasn't made any moves suggesting she wants more.

But here is how it happened. A month ago I had just gotten off of work and showered. I was doing a 6 day in a row work week so I was exhausted. I showered and fell asleep in bed right away. I woke up a couple of hours later and it was 6 PM. I was hard so I decided to rub one out real fast. When I watch porn on my phone I have earphones on that are noise-canceling so I don't hear anything else. Usually, I would lock the door but I just collapsed in bed and crashed right away.

Right as I'm about to cum the door opens and my mom is standing there. I see her mouth moving and her face looking shocked but I can't hear anything. I yanked the earphones out and hear her saying that she was sorry and she just wanted to tell me that she ordered pizza for us. She wasn't even looking away or closing the door. She was just standing there looking at me. I started to cum hard as fuck. Way harder than fucking usual. It was blasting. It felt exactly like how I cum when I have sex with someone. The whole time my mom was just standing there looking at me.

I spent the next week avoiding her the best I could. But one day she knocked on my door and asked to come in. She even made a joke like "are your pants on?" Before opening the door. She came in and sat next to me on bed and told me that it was okay. She said that she should have waited for my response instead of just opening the door. She gave me the typical mom "it's all natural" speech. At that point I wasn't sure if I was just mentally making it up because I enjoyed her seeing me cum. But there was something there. She was sitting just a little too close to me on the bed.

The biggest thing that stands out is that she brought it up. She said "I've never seen a guy shoot off that much." Which opened up more dialogue about sex. She told me that she uses a small vibrator and she suggested that I start masturbating with lube because it'll feel way better. She went to her room and gave me a partially used thing of lube. Imagining what that missing lube was used for sent my mind all over the place. Another time we were watching a movie and the woman was talking about how her guy is "super hung." And my mom was like "just like you" and put her hand on my thigh. At that point I finally accepted that something has shifted here and things changing between us.

Would I like to fuck my mother? I'm not exactly sure. If I were answering honestly I would say yes. But I don't want to ruin our relationship over a few moments of us being horny. It's all I've been thinking about lately but I'm not sure if it's the smartest choice. Recently she even alluded to the fact that she would suck my dick if I wanted. I can't go into the specifics of that without giving away details about us and where we're located but it was very clear.