Hello this is my first day here..just downloaded this app today in order to pour out my Chest!!.I feel broken am Pissed but still with a smile on my face 😥😥😥..I started living with My aunt and Uncle Some months back came over to another country for studies...My Fees are pretty expensive my uncle helps me to some of it.I don't pay for rent or food or House Bills. We are really close..I thought I got myself a bigg Brother he is 33 years old. I have my own room but because the heater increases house bills We only use one which is in his room..My Aunt is a health worker she does Night shifts.she is not always at Home. I am a heavy sleeper and I feel Cold almost every time..So I had no choice than to stay in his room..I always slept on the Floor with a small matrass.. Some months ago my Aunt threw it away cos it was old...So one day I came to sleep with the heater he told me to come on the Bed and stay...With my innocence, I came on the Bed with the kids in between us I slept peacefully.Can't tell exactly when he started touching me cos. Has I said I am a heavy sleeper...

Last month I noticed he usually Brought the youngest baby to my room and puts her to sleep on my Bed then sleeps for a while before going to his room..My Aunt has witnessed this but I know how much she Loves and trusts her Husband..Their Love is so Beautiful.. I envy them.But his recent reactions threatens me.So yesterday I was in his room as well,The youngest didn't want to go with me so I decided to put her to sleep then take her to my room.Then I zoomed off into sleep..

Just to feel a tingling effect on my Breasts ,I felt the same way I did when My best friend wanted to take advantage of me..I jumped up immediately then I realised that the baby wasn't on my chest but on the Bed,I immediately placed her on my chest but couldn't sleep...I wanted to know who did that to me .At first I thought of the Little Boy who sometimes would cling at my breasts thinking am the Mum..But those where huge fingers.He was awake but on his phone then I pretended to fall asleep ,after 15 mins I noticed him flashing the phone screen on my Eyes.. Thank God my eyes don't retract quickly when exposed to light so I was able to stay still...Then He gently pulled the baby from my chest..But the baby struggled to stay back after so many attempts he succeeded in pulling her down my Heart was beating so fast...

I couldn't catch him red handed in fear of what his reaction would am Just 18 and I still have three years left in my course of study..I don't want any trouble my Parents praise him everyone does. He has impacts on my Educations and parents life.As I was saying he slightly raised my pyjamas and started rubbing me on the stomach and tried going to my vagina but my pyjamas was tight on my waist. I had to move then he retracted his hands..Then he came to my breasts and massaged it do gently..then pressed it hard and he started touching my Nipples.. I had to hold my breath all these while so he doesn't hear my heart pounding i was confused and helpless. I feel bad for myself and my Aunty I don't mean to do this to her..Its just a 4 years marriage I can't ruin her happiness she talks of ruined homes and Is e how bittered she is..

I couldn't hold it so I shifted he removed his hands then I stood up and pretended to go to the toilet then came back and carried the Baby..I couldn't look him in the eyes as I always did.He was like "Where are you going? I said my room let's give you guys enough space.. From 2.30 midnight till Daybreak I couldn't sleep..RN am on my bed past my bedtime afraid of what happens next...I am also trying to put some pieces together of what happens in my room..One day he came in and lay on my bed I woke up and asked him why he was Herr did you bring anyone?(that's the kids) He said No I thought maybe they were crying or giving him problems that he left them with the Mum..I noticed he had his legs on my Legs that night.but since he sleeps haggardly I didn't bother RN I understand..its quite a Big stuff on me..I cant tell my Aunt she has enough problems..We just finished our normal night talks now...She is hot tempered she won't believe me..she trusts him so much... I don't want to be left stranded and not achieving my dreams of being educated...Am crying run this world is cruellllll...Am a virgin I don't want to loose it to someone I won't forgive myself or him...Why can't he see me has his daughter. I don't wear short things at home cause am paranoid from the start am also shy..I always cover my body.. Sometimes wear loose pants to sleep what has he seen that makes him into me.My aunt is beautiful and well endowed..I just have big Bum and a little boob...why must he touch my boobs .He is on night shift and will be back five hours from now.Will try to sleep before I start my watch session....Bye