To start, I'm 18F so this isn't a childhood crush. My only living grandparents are in another country so I was taken in by my uncle after my parents died coming home from a trip on 2014, I was 10. I wasn't legally adopted but he became my dad basically. I was an absolute brat and lashed out at people because I was sad and angry for a very long time from losing my parents.

My uncle [29] was very patient with me. He made sure that no matter what happens, I had a roof over my head, food on the table, clothes, and someone who loved me unconditionally. It took me years to finally start feeling happy again. The only reason I did is because of my uncle. His patience helped me get through a lot more than I ever thought possible and it's one of the reasons why I can't see myself being happy with anyone else but him.

I did go and dates with other guys but I didn't feel any kind of attraction to them, I realized it was because I was already attracted to someone else, my uncle. He is the most understanding and loving person I've ever met and there are days where I feel like I'm a burden to him, but he's still there for me.

I've never seen or heard him go on dates because he had to go home early to take care of me or help me with school. I never heard him complain or get angry when I was a brat who didn't help with chores. He was always there when I would just start crying when I start missing my parents. He seemed to know exactly what to do to keep me from going insane.

I just don't know how to say it to him without doing something that will damage our relationship. I wish he could see this post somehow and realize it's me.

TLDR: My uncle took me in after I lost my parents. After years, I fell in love with him because of how he takes care of me and puts me first.

Edit: Thank you for all the comments. I learned a lot about what I'm doing to myself and maybe him too if he probably notices it. I have a friend who can help me get a job so I can be a working student. It should be easy to find some place between school and work so I can convince him that I'll move out.

I'll give him space too cos I feel that I have slowed his life down so much especially romantically and financially. I will also limit my contacts with him to hopefully make my feelings go away as well. I'll start all of it before August comes. I'm still very much torn about not even telling him before moving out.