Hi so the title is short & sweet.. like everyone in this story, lol. Basically, back in 2016 I matched w a cute guy and we had a fling for a few months although I had to break it off as I was not into him as much as he was me. He told me he just didn't want to break my heart and that's why he never confessed his feelings while we were just flirting in the beginning. So after our fling I realized he is just a great person and he realized I am also a good person so we remained and still are, great friends.

My mom always asked me why I don't just marry... we'll call him Alex. I told her I just never thought of him that way and you have to have some good chemistry in bed, kissing, etc. Which Alex and I, did not have from my perspective.

Fast forward a few years, we're all at a festival and I see, out of the corner of my eye, my mother and Alex making out in the crowd, to which I pointed at both of them and exclaimed... hey! They both looked shocked and put on the spot but in all honesty, I had no ill will or awkward feelings about seeing this. I just thought it was funny bc it's not something you think you'll ever see. My mom was in her 40s at the time and Alex was in his thirties, I was in my 20s. I think I came up to them and we started dancing after this.

Today... now maybe 7 yrs later, Alex and I joke about the incident and they both have confessed to sleeping with one another during the festival. I think my mom thinks I have or should be feeling some type of way about her mackin with one of my best friends but I truly and sincerely don't. I would if Alex and I had actually dated or if I saw him in that way. I know he has had feelings for me although he values our friendship more than anything and he also probably knows we would never be a match.

I know it sounds odd but sometimes ppl can just be ppl and I have learned to keep our friendship at a distance bc of his feelings. And I think if he ever finds the one that it would be in his best interest to cut or keep our friendship in the past. I did find him attractive when we first got together but after our fling, I saw him as a friend, nothing more.

P.s. Idk how to change my username but my mom did not have an easy childhood, she was mostly raised by her grandmother and I have always been hard on her for her parenting. How she never treated me like a daughter (like my dad always has) so i understand the difference, its always been more like a sister, up until recently. Now that we are in counseling we can actually have a relationship & she's not toxic in the way her narcasist mother was to her.